The Ranting Again

"Dare me to jump?

Dare me to breathe?

Cause I am stronger than you've seen

If you're willing to wait

I'll give you your wish

Just turn your back and then you'll see"

This song was written by me a few years back when I was 12 or 13. If you can guess what it's about, you are a genius and I love you.

I have realized over the years that I'm kind of a terrible writer. Like, I'll write something and think, "Hey, this is awesome!" But then I'll read it again and again...and then it just seems stupid. Or I'll read something that someone else wrote and I'll be like, "Ehhh that's so much awesomer than mine". So I pretty much just quit writing at all anymore. But I kind of miss it. I was going through some old notebooks, where I happened to find that song, along with a few others that I wrote around that same time. I'm pretty sure I thought they were pretty good when I wrote them, but ya know. I was only 13.

I pretty much can't do anything. I'm not very talented. I can't write, I can't draw, I can't dance, I can't play sports...pretty much all I do is play instruments and sing, and I'm not even perfect at that. Oh, I make videos and nerdy junk like that too, but hardly anyone considers that a talent unless you're some YouTube sensation or something, which I am not.

Well, anyway, I'm done ranting...for now.

Oh, and here's another Blue October video, just because I can.

Now THAT is a lyrical genius right there. Says me, I don't care what you think.

Well bye.

You're An Ambulance!

"Alone at last, we can sit and fight.
And I've lost all faith in this blurring light,
But stay right here we can change our plight.
We're storming through this despite what's right"

                                     -Knives and Pens by Black Veil Brides

Okay people, prepare for spelling mistakes! I fractured my right ring finger and I'm stuck with a splint which makes it very difficult to type. So...all spelling mistakes get blamed on this lovely piece of metal stuck on my hand.

I went to the emergency room for it because my finger was crooked, and before this, I had never been to an ER before. When I walked in I was totally expecting to see someone covered in blood or something like that. Like, a REAL emergency. But there wasn't anyone there...just me. Then it started filling up...guy who fell off a ladder and couldn't breathe, girl with a terrible headache, dude with a possibly broken leg...I felt bad...my finger was only fractured! But it was kind of amazing how the people who were in more pain than me were so willing to joke around and talk to people they didn't know. I had a whole conversation with Broken Leg Dude, and he was laughing the whole time. And Ear Infection That Won't Go Away Girl was talking with us too. It was kind of awesome. I forgot about my finger and almost wanted to just stay in the waiting room the whole time, just to find out if these people were gonna be okay.

It was cool. Different, but cool.

Well...I have nothing else to write about. I guess I'll do the obvious thing and go to bed...or stay on the computer until I have to force myself upstairs. Yeah, let's go with that.



Malfunction

"And I wish you’d stay
That was the beginning of the two of us, the start of our show
Stay, stay, stay...
Now I would never have let go"

                              -The Feel Again (Stay) by Blue October

Another masterpiece from the lyrical genius known as Justin Furstenfield..

We meet again. This time sooner than last...heh. I honestly have no idea what the following will entail, so bear with me here.

Er...I think I'll just post a video now. My mind has decided to fail me once again.

Here's a scene- er um, clip, from one of my favorite movies, The Producers.

There's a few reasons why this is one of my favorite movies. One being Matthew Broderick and Nathan Lane. The next being that it's a musical, and last the fact that it's freaking hilarious. I could watch it every day and not be tired of it.

Oh yeah...I watched E3 last week. (If you don't know what that is, I'm not taking the time to explain it. I'm too lazy) Now I really freaking wish I had an XboX 360. The new motion control is all futuristic and junk.

And I'm sure I already mentioned Blue October's new album a million times already, but here it comes again. Is it possible to be in love with a band? I think it is. It's almost like they get inside my mind and then write down my thoughts and turn them into songs...woah. How cool would that be? XD

This blog has been sufficiently less entertaining then the last few...hurgh. Sorry. My mind packed up and left for Japan already. : /
I think I'll go now before I blow up the interwebz. I'm feeling kind of lyrical though...maybe I'll write a poem or some lyrics or something tommorow.
Later alligator.

Let Me Count The Ways...

"Take my hand
Maybe we should run away
Maybe we should disappear
Leave everything behind
Like the useless things
Boxes labeled memories
The sudden health emergencies
Yeah we could leave those things behind"

                            -The Chills by Blue October

This one is from Blue October's new album called "Any Man In America", which comes out August 16th. I can't wait!

Aaaaanyway, hi. How are you? Me, I'm doing great. Awesome. The only thing that's bugging me at the moment is 1. The fact that I have to wake up early every weekday in June for drivers ed, and 2. I really freaking want some Natchan right now, but it's only available in Japan, where I do not live. But as of late, I have many reasons to be happy, most of which I will list for you right now.

1. I recently recieved a few pretty awesome parts in my local theatre group's summer musical, The Wiz. I've got lines this time around!

2. La-la-la-love is in the air... ;)

3. My friends from Japan are coming to stay with me at the end of July. 私はとても興奮しています！私は待つことができない!!

4. By the end of this year, I will have my drivers liscense, which means I can go where I want, when I want.

5. School's out for summer! School's out forever!

6. Blue October is coming out with an amazing new album pretty soon.

That's 6 right there, and I'm sure there's more I'm forgetting about. But yeah, so this is cool. Now I want some KoolAid. Gah, I really wish I could move to Japan already. They have amazing stuff there! I wanted some Mitsuya Cider earlier, then I wanted some Qoo...even some Pocari Sweat would work. It's kind of like flavorless Gatorade. I had it on my first night there, and I was like, "Woah...this is weird". But I kind of miss the taste of it. Also, Japan's Grape Fanta is amazing. Better than here. Sigh...oh well. I'll get there soon enough.

...I also just realized that if you read that last paragraph really fast, I would sound like a hyper ADHD kid. XD

Well, I'm done for now. I have to wake up early for...oh, nevermind. I already said that.

So...bai.